My hair is gone and so am I

OMG I leave to bootcamp tomorrow morning at the ass crak f dawn...I'm goin to tha hotel tonight...

And i cut my hair...it was past mah ass and now it at tha middle of mah back...i cried..i aint gonna lie...I got pissed cuz Ssgt. Nguyen said that it aint even short...mah fuckn ass it is short as hell...

But ne hoo...I'm friggn ready...Jus gotta figure out if i wanna bring sports bras and stuff or not...im reading online and most say dont bring much...so yah...

Well ne way that bout it...tryna git in as much family time as possible right now...wish me luck...because the countdown has ended....

My mom went bye-bye and i miss her

So I spent tuesday finishing up packing...
I still cant believe it...Then after packing we searched for a place for my BF and brotha to live at...no luck...i feel so bad knowing that they now dont have a place to live at...
SO we found them a motel room but mah mom could only afford it for a week...

After all that I was gitting prety stressed out...couldnt really take it all at once...so I went to frisco wit da doods...(Saheed, Cheddar Bob, Ray, my BF, and his cuzzin Jacob) ...but ill git into details about dat later...

But yah that same day my friends had me a lil goin away dinner @ Red Robin...it was fun havent seen some of dem since skoo ended...I cant believe im leaving in like 4 days... They bought me an elephant baloon hat...that was red white and blu so i pretty much looked like a republican..but its aight kuz i am...I named him Elefante Gigante...our waiter was pretty rude so we didnt tip him...not even gratuity...

Now back to Frisco...
Saheed, Ray, & Cheddar Bob crashed mah dinner at da end..then we were gonna go to da beach but decided not to...picked up JT and his cuzzin and dat lil bee..Jt popped mah elefantes trunk...
So we went down to Frisco...

• stopped to figure wat exactly we were gonna do..then some homeless lady came and asked for some change...so i gave her some and she started to flow..dood she was pretty sick...she had dat raggae thang goin on her name was Momma Veteran...then she started preaching to us about rasta-farien..(i think das how u spell it) religion talking about Jesus is black ...lol...then she asked if we smoked weed and dat was our cue to leave...so we did..
• Then we drove in circles to find Van ness...when we ran into some lady and she hopped in da car to show us..da female basically made us give her a ride home cuz she had us goin in da wrong direction...it was funny though cuz da doods was asking her hela questions and she got scared and almost died tryna git out da car...lol
• We saw a hooker...ray turned around to talk to her but she was gone...
• We went into a preview porn shop...there was dis huge swollen black dood...he didnt say much but when he did he spoke lyka cowboy and come to think of it there was country music playing in da store too...lol...i thought you only seen that in da movies...lol
• We almost saw a bum fight
• Walked the warf
• And then headed home...
• Ray used onstar for directions but Saheed used it to cupcake wit da female...lol...it was fun

but the thing was i wasnt fully in it 1) b/c mah BF was acting a foo....and 2) because I knew my mom was leaving that same mornong... so i got home and spent as much time with her as i could but it was like 5:00am...slept in my bros car and then went with to drop her at tha airport...


And yesterday was mah last pt wit da station...hit 66 seconds on tha hang...but didnt do so well on da run...then went to a BBQ wit mah boo-boo...went to my sisters house and watched family guy wit da niece and that was that...

Spending mucho time wit friends and family cuz I'm leaving in

4 more days

haunted beach, fire, drinks, canned meat, fast cars...what a night

Last night me, mah BF, Cheddar Bob, Ray, his cuzin, and Saheed....went to da beach foe a bonfire...
Got picked up at ten headed to stock up on some goods at walmart...Ray insisted on buying canned beans and sloppy joe mix...turned out to be da shiznit wit chips...

Random Events Of Tha Night

• Saheed, Ray, Steve, and Cheddar Bob was on sum crazy shyt and decided to jump in da cold ass ocean at lyk 1:00am
• Went on a beer run wit da guys to find a bano cuz i had to pee...didnt find one-->so generous Saheed gave me some Taco Bell napkins so I could pop a squat...lol...how embarassing
• When we came bak from tha beer run Ray and JT was a lil too close and was tryna show us where all dis creepy shyt was happening...-->I had to be escorted to pop a squat cuz i was trippn...lol
• I fell mah ass out da chair and couldnt git up
• We had an 18 pack and I drank one but ther than that Saheed was da only one drinking and he was buzzin;...lol
• Cheddar Bob farted I was da only one dat herd..but i think das what made it funny
• Ray caught his shirt on fire...hahah da foo lookeded lyka bum
  
• We hopped in da car round 3:45am to go home --> Hit up Ssgt, Nguyen wit a dumb voicemail...and Sgt. Dean
• Got to SJ at sunrise everyone ate MCdonalds for breakfast mah treat...then we waited
• and waited and waited for Rays slow ass...we was in SJ and he was still on da open road...
• Haha then Sgt. Dean called us...dat dood wasnt even half way awake...
  
• Got home round 5:30 realized i left mah brand new fone in Saheeds coche...then crashed on da floor wit mah boo...woke up round 12:30....

Dat was some fun shiznit...tonight Dave & Busters...tryna have some fun...cuz

7 Days til Marine Corps Bootcamp

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Workout/BBQ on tha beach

So today was officially my last pool function.
I got picked up bright and erly by Ingrid to meet up at da station...did a lil drilling...then packed up and headed to Santa Cruz
Once we finished unloading our gear...the Marines wasted no time starting us on our PT for the day.
Started out with some stretches led by the recruiters from the Lifeguard tower (kinda reminded me of the Navy Seal videos)...then we began our beach run...I thought that it was goin to be in the dry sand....but i was wrong...within 5 minutes of starting the run I was soaked from my stomach down...hella fun though...we ran the whole seabright beach and back then through a water cave thang to the other side of the Boardwalks beach...and back...
After doing some cool down exercises, chugging a bottle of H2O (more than one for some poolees), and finally dumping out that 12 pounz of wet sand in my shoes... it was time for SSgt. Jackson's class on water survival...so we went in the water...its funny cuz i wasnt planning on gitting wet (friggn SSgt. Nguyen dunked me) but I changed my mind quick especially since i was alredy soaked from tha run...
Soon enough it was time for my class...it actually went pretty well...then a follow up class on mine by Sgt. Cardoza...then it was time for chillin and grubbin...
I was proud of myself since i was the only female who participated today...

AFTER TODAY I KNOW I AM READY FOR BOOTCAMP...

Overall the day was relaxing and coo cuz I got to know the other poolees again...got a lil sun burned in the process but its all good...cuz it feels good to have gotten to knoe everyone else better...and clown on MacPeter...lol...( "I aint saying she a gold digga...but")...and I pushed my self to the fullest....yup today was a good day...

Oh yah and yesterday I switched over to T-Mobile...so that when I'm at Bootcamp I can have my fone suspended and then the same numberr unsuspended when I come back...had to do it cuz there's only

9 days left until I leave for Marine Corps Bootcamp

"Just cuz I'm leaving doesnt mean that life won't go on"

Raging waters was heka fun yesterday wit Ana n KArina...got hella free stuff...and had some lafs...

So last night mah BF went home expecting to be happily welcomed...but wasnt...i felt so bad for him family shouldnt act like that...so we picked him up late and he spent the night again...

Woke up super erly this morning to his families endless calls...but I didnt care cuz i was so excited to finally be spending tha day with him...but then he decided to sub for sumwun...I was so hurt that he'd rather work than spend time with me...even though I'm still upset I kno that it was pretty selfish...it's like he dont really got nowhere to stay after I leave and I kno das why he gotta save up...das when i realized that

"Just because I'm leaving, it doesnt mean that life doesnt go on back at home".

But then I think we both realized we were wrong and he

called me inviting me to the movies...i felt so happy but of course

with him it never lasts...cuz then he had to have some girl in da

background tryna be supa cute....grrrr.....so now i dont know if i

realy wana go.

Well enough of dat drama...so far today I jus been slowly packing up my room...so sad...friggn crazy...

ANd on top of that I gotta give a short class on leadership at da pool function...i dnt kno why im nervous with all my experience...i gues i jus dont want to ramble on about NJROTC...jus gotta pik mah main idea and git in the zone to stik wit it...

Well now Ima go git showered and ready gonna try and transfer my Metro Celly to Verizon...aight well time for me to throw up tha dueces...

"I've become so numb..."

So the past couple days have been pretty coo...but its like the days are just passing me by and not hitting me...

Past couple days: I went to git Red Robin with two good friends Ana and Windy...then we watched porn in tha theatre..lol..naw we watched Bruno but mine as well have been porn...it was disturbingly funny...then got picked up by the BF...it was fun hanging out wit old frenz again... --->OMG and I came sooo close to passing mah drivers test I got -19 but only allowed -15...grrr...and on top of dat...when i was driving home wit mah mom and boo in da car while i was stopped the car behind the car behind me hit the car behind me which led to the car behind me hitting me...lol...no damage but kinda scary....lol...but it was ok then later that night da boo layed on da grass and watched da starts wit me...and made me a ring outta nature..but then it broke ;(....

Today the boyfrends going bak home...I'm glad for him but it jus sux cuz i kno i wont git to see as much of him before i leave but as long as he is happy its ok...

I have had soo much goin on...

I jus started to pack up mah stuff and its so surreal to me...like i cant even feel all i can feel is my stomach twisting from anxiety...

I'm not acting different much but i can feel my self having to push myself to be ME... Sometimes i even feel as if im over doing it but i honestly dont kno how to handle it...

I try to get closer to my boyfriend but i kno he's suffering too and his way of dealing with it is to push me away so that he wont be so attached when i leave but steo i sux...i love change but

sometimes tha route to a good change sux...

• One of mah brothers thinks he's suffering from a social disorder
• Mah other brother is soon to be homeless again sleeping under a bridge
• Mah youngest brother is gitting a second chance i sure hope he takes it
• Mah mom is moving out of the country to Germany with her drunken husband

I kno that after bootcamp I'm gonna have somewhere to stay (mah sisters) but it jus sux thinkin that I'm not coming bak to "my home"...

Well I'm going to Raging Waters today wit mah girlies cuz we didnt end up goin last time so hopefully that takes mah mind off things...I found some hilarious pictures from like years ago that i gotta show them...yup yup gotta live it up cuz i only got

11 Days left until I leave for Marine Corps Bootcamp

This weekend!!!

This weekend has been pretty coo....

On Saturday I jus chilled and worked out...then I went to da Demi Lovato Concert wit mah niece. HAHAHAHA!!! Me & Demi Lovato...lol...but it was actuallly pretty coo even though i was surrounded by a buncha lil kids...and David Archuleta & KSM was there...then i went home....I LOVE SPENDING TIME WIT MAH NIECE...

On Sunday:
Woke up erly...went to McDonalds for breakfast wit mah momz...then came home...and got to drive to pik mah Boo up!!!...Tha rest of the day we pretty much chilled...then went to his uncle Marty's house for a coo lil kikit BBQ...we watched Chill Factor then went home...to sleep...

So Today:
SSgt. Jackson called me supa erly tryna git me to ship out erly AGEN!!..i would but i got so much goin on at home ryte now and i want more time wit mah frenz and family...Then i went on a walk wit mah Boo to 7/11 came bak jus cooked and ate potatoe pancakes and now watching "Jaw Breaker" ...
Later Ima go to Raging Waters wif mah girls from ROTC while mah Boo-Boo is @ work... i cant wait...its gonna be funy to see all da lil LifeGuards that are gonna try and boss me around...lol...they dont kno me...lol...

well thats it for now...and gess wut?...

I got

15 Days left Until I ship Out for Marine Corps Boot Camp

16 days to go

16 days until Marine Corps Bootcamp Parris Island

So yesterday was a coo ass day...
Started out bright and erly..got picked up by S. Sgt Jackson-->which was pretty funny cuz he had some girl wit him...i think she spent da nite wit him...lol..

Then met up at da station wit like 6 otha poolees (all guys)...from there we went to MEPS for our IST...even though i wasnt feeling tha best i did pretty decent....

Flexed Arm Hang: 56 secs
Crunches: 62
1.5 mile run: 13:12 min

I was especially proud of my run cuz das da fastest Ive done it...then i gotta free Marine Corps shirt for being the fastest female runner....HOORAH!!!

Then we all got some Taco Bell...then S.Sgt Nguyen wanted to go swimming at my apartments...so we did...it was coo...
We all swam and all the guys threw dihn in da pool cuz he didnt kno how to swim...then mah BF came down and taught him.,..pretty coo i actually got to know them more....yup yup yup yesterday was a good day and today is gonna be pretty much chill....

50 G's or 3 weeks???

21 days left until i leave for USMC Bootcamp

Or is it????

I gotta call from Sgt. Dean today asking if i wanted to ship out erly on da 13th insted of the 27th...

**Oh yah and mah Drivers test is da 14th i dnt really wanna ship out and stuff w/o mah L's**

And i kno it isnt much of a difference but i really wanted to spend as much time with mah friends and fam as i can...

then i thot maybe i could git a betta M.O.S (thats basically ur job in da Corps) but turns out there aint really a chance of dat...

but then sgt. dean dean made me a good offer saying that he can work it to where i would git 50 G's insted of 40 but idk if it really worth it cuz i neva really was in it for the money...but i can use all dat for wuteva i want when i git out...but is it worth it to cut mah time with my friends fam..and boo short?...IDK i gotta lot to think bout and ima let dem kno by tomrw...

Ne ways on a different note...i spent 4th of july weekend at 6 flags didnt plan to spend 2 days there but we did and i was sooo happy cuz i got to ryde an elefante and kiss a dolphin...cuz i love aminals...it sucked cuz i wanted mah bf to be there...seeing all da otha females wit their doods...but in da end it turned out good...

Today woke up ran for a lil...drove to git mah nieces dress....and came to mah sistahs house for a fam BBQ...pretty much a good day...but mah throat has been reall sore...so dat sux and i have a headache...but overall these past days been good...but i jus wanna see mah boo boo even if he is being a moody jerk...

Well i gotta lot to think about tonite...hit me up and giv me some insight if you can ...well im bout tah hit Starbucks g'night bloggers...